Demam

Waktu mental diasak hingga ke dinding, nafas yang dihela terasa sendat. Allah hu Akbar!

Biarpun ramai pun kawan-kawan di samping, ia hanya mampu menyembuh luka lapisan atas, sedangkan yang parah adalah di dasar. Jauh di lubuk hati. Lalu saya cuba mencari diri melalui hati. Pernah seorang kawan berkata,

Your body cannot take the stress.

Saya nafikan kenyataannya pada waktu itu. Kini, rupanya kenyataan itu nyata benar. Fizikal saya kecundang. Tidak mampu untuk bergerak seperti biasa. Tubuh sakit bagaikan dipukul-pukul sekuat hati. Tapak kaki seperti memijak paku tajam. Perut memulas sentiasa. Segala sendi terasa sakit.

Maka, berbaringanlah saya dengan penuh kelesuan sudah hampir seminggu. Teringat kata arwah Mak, “tak tentu rasa.” Betul. Lapar tetapi makan tak lalu. Mengantuk tetapi tidor tak lena. Sakit tetapi tak tahu di bahagian mana yang perlu dipicit. Kalau Nujum Pak Belalang datang merawat, mungkin dikatanya saya, “Sakit Angau.”

Bila diimbas kembali, kali terakhir saya demam ialah dua tahun lalu. Dan ini kali pertama didiagnos dengan demam denggi. Alahai nyamuk. Apalah yang istimewa sangat mahu dirasa darah remaja purba yang terlebih gebu!

Sakit di badan sebenarnya tidak seperit sakit di hati. Bukan kepalang kecewa bila harapan yang diletakkan musnah tidak kesampaian. Segala usaha seolah sia-sia. Allah hu Rabbi. Saya tahu dengan pasti ini hanya seketika. Akan tiba masa indah buat kami, namun, menghadapi situasi yang sebegini mengasak mental hingga ke tahap maksima.

Berkali-kali saya katakan pada anak-anak, sabar, solat dan doa. Doakan Mama dan Papa kuat menghadapi semua ini. Bangun malam. Mohon pada Allah untuk memudahkan semuanya. Laluan kita Allah sempitkan seketika. InshaaAllah kita mampu menempuhinya dan ia akan menjadi satu kejayaan besar buat kita sebagai hamba Allah. Dia Maha Tahu siapa yang diujiNya.

Namun, bersendirian bukan sesuatu yang mudah seperti yang dibayangkan. Sebagai manusia yang berperasaan, ada ketika berperang dengan perasaan yang bukan-bukan. Sungguh Syaitan memang bermaharajalela mengusik fikiran andai dibiarkan.

Dalam kegelapan malam, sambil melayan kesakitan di badan, saya melihat ke dalam diri, untuk kesekian kali. Mengalir laju airmata memohon keampunan Allah dan mengucapkan Syukur Alhamdulillah kerana ujian ini sebenarnya terlalu sedikit dibanding dengan nikmat yang Dia kurniakan.

Kisah Nabi Allah Yunus yang meninggalkan kaumnya yang derhaka kepada Allah sentiasa menjadi ingatan kepada diri. Kesusahannya bertimpa bila dia diundi, bukan sekali, untuk dibuang ke dalam laut lalu terus ditelan ikan. Pengucapan doa baginda begitu murni.

“Tiada Tuhan melainkan Engkau Ya Allah. Maha Suci Engkau. Sesungguhnya aku adalah dari orang-orang yang menganiaya diri sendiri.”

Terjemahan surah Al-Anbiya ayat 87

Saya ulang-ulang doa ini sepanjang masa. Begitu halus maksud yang tersirat. Ia memberi bukti akan kemantapan dan ketulenan tauhid Nabi Yunus di mana baginda tidak mengadu, merungut dan berharap kepada sesiapa dan apa jua melainkan kepada Allah biarpun berada dalam perut ikan yang gelap gelita. Baginda mensucikan Allah dari sebarang bentuk kezaliman dan penganiyaan. Baginda yakin bahawa ditelan ikan paus bukanlah satu bentuk penganiyaan dari Allah kepada dirinya. Dan tanpa memberi sebarang alasan, baginda mengakui kesalahannya.

Nabi Yunus tidak terus meminta ampun kepada Allah, sebaliknya memilih cara yang lebih lembut, beradab lagi merendah diri dengan mengakui kesalahannya.

Allah hu Rabbi.

Terasa sungguh kecil dan hina diri di hadapan Allah kerana mulut masih mengeluh sakit itu sakit ini. Bunyi bising dan cahaya silau yang amat sedikit sudah boleh membangkitkan rasa marah yang amat. Baring di atas sofa empuk, dalam kedinginan pendingin hawa, ditemani keluarga, tapi masih mengeluh. Bayangkan kesusahan insan lain.

Sesungguhnya, saya bersyukur kerana dapat merasai kemanisan nikmat ujian kala berdepan dengan kesakitan.

Alhamdulillah.

85 thoughts on “Demam

  1. Doa Nabi Yunus 🙂
    Hati terasa ..Allah Maha Mengetahui nya
    Daku mohon keampunan mu Ya Allah..aamin

  2. Sokongan mereka yang menyayangi amat diperlukan. Teruskan menyayangi, inshaaAllah kita akan sentiasa disayangi.

  3. Ketika sakit..saat itu kita akan sentiasa mengingati Allah..agar sakit kita segera sembuh..terkenang apakah dosa kita hingga diuji sebegini rupa… betul lah kata … sakit adalah penghapus dosa.. bila mana saat itu ingatan kita kepada Allah amat tinggi berbanding masa sihat…. aamiin.. Allah bg kita sakit utk kita bermuhasabah diri…

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  44. 多くの女性が40代を超えると女性ホルモンの体内分泌量が急激に減少してしまいます。この40代ごろから起こりやすくなる、だるさ、めまい、冷え性などを招く更年期障害は、この女性ホルモンの減少が原因と言われています。

    私たちのカラダの中には男性ホルモンと女性ホルモンの2つのホルモンが存在しており、それぞれのバランスが保っていることで健康体をキープしています。逆に言えば、両者のバランスが崩れてしまうことで色々な不調を招いてしまうのです。

    しかし40代女性だけが当てはまるというわけではありません。疲労や食生活などライフスタイルの少しのきっかけで、女性ホルモンはバランスが乱れてしまうのです。近年若い女性に増加している月経前症候群(PMS)も、女性ホルモンが大きな要因であるといわれています。

    そうした理由で今話題になっているのが、女性ホルモンを増やすことによって女性特有の不調を改善することです。女性ホルモンサプリがいろんなメーカーから登場したことで、サプリに含まれる天然成分の働きによって安心してホルモンバランスを整えることができる ようになったのです。ライフスタイルと食生活の見直しをすることは非常に重要ですが、何かと忙しい人にとって実行に移しやすいのはサプリだと思います。女性ホルモンサプリは、何歳になっても健康的に美しい女性でい続けるための、スマートな選択肢と言えます。

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  46. 我々人間が常日頃から少しずつでも摂取しておかなければならないミネラルという成分の一つに、亜鉛があります。亜鉛という言葉を耳にして 、 え?何それ?という素朴な 疑問が湧いてしまいますが、それも仕方がないといえば仕方がないかもしれません 。鉄などのミネラルは、亜鉛と比べてもっと 身近で、俗に言う頭がクラクラするというような貧血に
    多くの女性の方が困っている 症状にダイレクトに 絡んでいるだけに、 良く知られています。しかし亜鉛の場合、亜鉛とその 効能の 直接の関係が良く知られていないだけに、他のミネラルのように知られていないのです
    が、とても大切 なんですね。例えば、亜鉛の 効能の一つに育毛 が挙げられます。薄毛 や抜け毛が気になりはじめたら、意外とこの亜鉛を摂取してみる
    と良いかもしれません。そして、特に男性の 男としての自信についても大切な 関係があります。 最近男として漲るものが無いというような場合、 考えられる原因の一つに、この亜鉛が足りないこと
    が挙げられるかもしれませんね。また、味覚 が最近鈍っているのでは?というような場合にも、この亜鉛 不足が原因として考えられるかもしれません。他にも、女性にとっては、健康なお肌の維持 に多いに 貢献するなど、 意外とこの亜鉛って大切な ミネラルなんですよ。そして、この亜鉛を含んだサプリメントを成分として
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